I've been thinking a lot lately. Thinking about the turn of events that have come in my life. Thinking so much that I can barely sleep. One question that has gone through my head is, "Have I gotten in over my head?" "Is there no coming back from how far I have fallen? What's next for me?" I've asked myself this over and over again, cause I have been wondering what it is that I am afraid of and what it is that I failed at. It's life in general. I feel like I failed in life from the very ...

So after the Superbowl, Seth McFarlane brings back his twisted humor for "American Dad". Sweet, can't wait for that. Then, on May 1st, new episodes of "Family guy. Can't wait for those either since I have the seasons on DVD and watched the hell out of them. Anyway.. Link Plus, Die Hard 4.0 is in pre-production. Names that have been thrown around for it was Die Hard 4(obviously) and (this is funny since it was on the Tiny toon adventure movie along time ago) Die Hardest. Link Then the...

Today at work I had one of the stupid order pullers smarted off to me. One of the other lift driversand myself were trying to figure out what to do with a pallet of books that had to be let down from the top racks so the order pullers could get the books. I was pissed cause it was a whole pallet of books and since the beginning of the week, seems like I have been pulling down hundreds of units for which could be avoided by putting the books in the bottom shelves. Here's how it works. The ...

It's still up in the air, but Sosa is on his way out the door in Chicago to the Baltimore Orioles. Well, what the hell happened here? Sosa was the most beloved Chicagoian (if it's a word) since Michael Jordan. He (along with Mark McGwire) basicly resurrected baseball with the great home run race in '98. Sosa has had his image tarnished since then with accusations of steroid use, the cork bat fiasco, then bailing on the last game of the season, and critizicing baseballs most repected mana...

I hate my life. I didn't do anything today to celebrate my near death experience. It sucks. I can't get out of this god damn funk I'm in and I can't get myself wasted enough to forget about shit. I just want to forget about shit but I can't. I have to think about every little thing and how I feel that people hate me. Why do I think this? Why do I put myself through this hell? Dammit, why can't I get drunk enough to not think about these questions. Dammit all. Hell, maybe I'll feel better ...

So it was an early day for me at work. We've been on this "no overtime" thing for the last few days so we have been getting of earlier than usual. So I decide to make it an early night an just stay home for the night. When I get home, I notice that we don't have anything to eat here except what my mom and sister have. Can't touch there stuff without conscent, so I decide to go to Wally world to pick up some essentials for the weekend. Onmy way, I decide to take a scenic route. (famous last wo...

So here I sit on another friday night by myself. Anyway, for anyone who's reads this. How's your week gone? How's your weekend gone so far? Mine's'all good, I decided that I'm going to copy all of my music to my computer so I'll have something to listen to while I surf. That, and I'm also trying to come up with some new song ideas. I really don't to write anything depressing (god nows I have enough of that) I want to write something upbeat. Drinking, a little, not heavy. I'll still hoist...

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I've been living with my family for the last few months now and everything seems to run smooth. Everything except for the communication that is. It mostly consist of yelling. I ask myself. Why do they have to yell? Why? The house isn't that big and everyone can hear if the voice is kept at a reasonable tone. So why yell? I then realize it's because we are black. No matter what we are supposed to yell. Yeah, it's a stereotype that I'm not proad to say, but it's true. We're load. Some of us ar...

I went to bed last night around 5 o'clock. Thought I was going to get enough sleep cause no work and all, but I woke up at freakin' 9. That's 5 hours of sleep. Crap. It should be enough but I had the same amount yesterday, the day after that, the day after that, and..well.. actually for the last month now. Is this a problem? It wouldn't be if I had nothing to do most of the day. Working 12 hours a day for 5 (to 6) days a week and only getting 5 hours of sleep in-between those periods do ...

Yeah, I got my high speed internet today and it kicks all that which is ass! I love it. It's so fast. Don't have to wait for anything just a click, and boom, it's there. I got the comcast high speed, but it's only temporary. I heard that Bellsouth had it cheaper. I'm only using comcast so I can get the free Mp3 player with my first bill. After that, switching to Bell south. But still, HIGH SPEED ROCKS Until next time.... -MX-

One of my co-workers brought it to my attention that one of the (former) employees had past around rumors that me and her were romantically involved. The one who told me about this, kept trying to get information from me and just kept asking questions like, "How long have you guys been together?", and, "When did you guys first get together?". Unaware of this crap, I told her that we weren't even friends and we only talked when we were at work. Aw no, she wasn't buying that. She told me tha...

It's a day away from the weekend and I can't wait. Friday=payday. Payday=money. Money=equals. Awwww ... alchohol. OOOOhhh yeah, it's on tomorrow. I have know Idea what I would like to have though. One thing is for sure, I'll be drinking and partying here at the hizzie. After a day like today and a week like this week, I could use a drink right now. Dammit. Where is the booze when I need it. Well, until next time when I'll actually have something interesting to blog about. -MX-

Sucks being poor. I don't have any cash until friday. Damn, its just a day away and it seems like forever in the distance. The anticipation is killing me. I need cash dammit all!!! I've been just searching for food and can't find anything but, umm, peanut butter. Well, it will have to do. Slap some bread with it and it's a meal. Another reason I can't wait for payday is I get my cable modem on friday. No more dial-up after that. I can't wait. This dial-up business is so damn slow. ...

I't been three months since I started my job and I have yet to make any new friends. I keep telling myself, "You didn't come here to make friends, you come here to work. That's what you should do since your in all kinds of debt before your 25th birthday." I'm having this combination of wanting to be around some of my co-workers, but not. Half of them are stupid anyway. One of them busted his eardrum buy cleaning his ear with a pencil. A FUCKING PENCIL . Not with the blunt end either. He t...