Lifes not that bad, but I'm gonna bitch about it anyways....
Published on December 26, 2004 By mada_ecks In Misc
There is alot of stuff i want ot talk about. There is alot of stuff that is running through my head right now, but I have to wait until the time is right. I have questioned freindships and questioned peoples integrity. I have hated on people that were my friends and I have shoned them away. I have been an asshole. I have been the spoiled brat that has caused a tiff in a friendship.

you see, i have blogged ( in the past) about certain friends that don't keep in contact and don't call as much as they use to. I realize that time changes and people change. I realize that people have things that they like to do. I have to realize that. I have to take into account other peoples wants and needs. I shouldn't bee selfish. I should grow up and be an adult and realize my own wants and needs. I can't damn people because they do what everyone else does. I have to grow up. I have to do the right thing from now on.

Even though, I always thought I was doing the right things, but it was just for my own benefit, not for my friends. I want to change that. I want to change. I want to do the right things for the people that matter in my life. I want to start over. So I should take what ever roll is out there for me. I should be the understanding friend. I should be the friend that cares. I shouldn't be an ass. I should be the person my grandparents raised me to be. I should be....

Comments
on Dec 26, 2004
Good for you, admiting your wrong is a good place to start correcting the problem. Sounds like you have a noble goal and I hope you do well at it.
on Dec 26, 2004
Well, I had an epiphany yesterday and I realized that my way of thinking is not really consistent with the way I act. I have pushed friends away cause of my attitude and I want to put forth an effort to care about the things and people that are important. I'm really uncertain about what next year has instore for me, and that scares me. i'm usually making some sort of resolution or something, but next year starts of with me being in court and owing alot of people money. I think about the mistakes I made, and I realize that the way I've treated some people was totally wrong of me. I can be judgemental, I can be an "asshole", and I can have an abrasive opinion on things that are important to a person. So I want to think about what I say (and what I do) and try not to end up being one of those guys that wondered were all his friends went.