It's late and I was just setting here thinking about something to post when I didn't have anything. I think that I'll write a few lines from one of my favorite songs. This would go in the lyric game, but I really didn't feel like matching words, so here goes. Read me the letter, baby Do not leave ou the words. Story and cigaretts ruin lives of lesser girls Yeah, want you to know.cause i got to konw And it's a stange condition A day in prison It's got me out of my head and I don't kn...

I ask, why does alcohol taste so good? I don't really know, but it helps me kill anything negative I've been thinking about all day. I haven't really thought about anything since I took a drink a few hours ago. It just taste so good. I think I lost a few brain cells though, but who's counting. (and who cares. Its alcohol) I know it's a work week, but I just felt like drinking anyway. So cheers, and everyone have a good night. I think I'll be better in the morning.

So here I am, another Saturday night and I'm by myself. What happened to the "friends" that were going to hang out with me no matter what? Well this is what happened. I came to the conclusion that friends are like nikes, they're good for about six months and then you want a new pair. So i figure my $150 value has run out. I guess i can just chill by myself and have a few beers and drink a little vodka for the weekend. Damn, this drinking shit has become a habit. I better watch it. So I hope e...

I love how I think sometimes. It borders on the verge of randomness. Sometimes I get down just like everyone else, but I draw on some of my brainstorming to help me through the day. I'll give an example. A song runs through my head like so, "let me think (think about what?) about girls (and what else?), money and new clothes." (What do I get?) "Thirty nights (uh huh) of violence (yeah) and sugar to love." "Her she comes (ha ha ha) closer to the lung." (So I can, so I can.) "Shove her...

It's almost Eleven o'clock and I have a bit a hungar attack. We really don't have anything here at the house that's worth eating. I dig, dig, and dig, but can't find one scrap of food anywere. Until.... I stumble upon some peanut butter that I had when I was living in my apartment. I check the experation date, still good. So with that being said, I grab some breed and I hit the food bar. Ohhh, peanut butter is sooooo good. It makes me happy. It makes me feel full. I really don't have to ...

Today at work, I was trying to figure out how to get of work Thursday so I could rest for the big family weekend get together during christmas. I keep saying to myself " I should have asked for the day off." But then I found out that if I took thursday off, I would lose my holiday pay. I said to myself," Fuck it, might as well go in." Then a small miracle happened. Because of the talk of snow here in the south, the supervisors got together to figure out a way to keep employee's from callin...

Yeah it's finally here. Christmas eve. The day before the do date. The day befor good ol' St Nick come down the chimney and drops of presents for all the good boys and girls. Yeah, its almost over. I really don't want it to be though. Without the hassel of shopping and dealing with everyone else that's in a hurry to get the perfect gift, I wish it would last for a while. Isn't the old saying "Christmas is year round" relevant anymore. It just seems that this time of year brings out the best o...

There is alot of stuff i want ot talk about. There is alot of stuff that is running through my head right now, but I have to wait until the time is right. I have questioned freindships and questioned peoples integrity. I have hated on people that were my friends and I have shoned them away. I have been an asshole. I have been the spoiled brat that has caused a tiff in a friendship. you see, i have blogged ( in the past) about certain friends that don't keep in contact and don't call as muc...

I got off work, I got home, checked my blog sites, checked my email, and I had a beer. Without thinking I took a beer rom the fridge and just drank it down. I'm kinda worried cause I never drank in the middle of the day before. To boot, I've been drinking all week actually, during a work week I might add. During a work week for christ sakes!!!! Know that I think about it, I am really worried about falling of the wagon again. I probably better watch myself. But the only question that runs thr...

So my new year is going great right now. I started off working 23 1/2 hours on Thursday. Then, I spent my whole 3 day weekend fighting a godamn cold. Then, I saw a friend that I haven't seen in a while that was walking with some dude that I guess is her boyfriend cause she never calls me anymore. (I figured out the deal behind that and I'm about to rant on that right know.) I spent 2 years being this girls personal therapist. I spent most of my time being that "shoulder" that I so love. I ...

I'm pissed off, drunk as hell, and I don't like anybody in my town or at my job. Alone on a friday night. It's become a trend. After working 100+ hours a week it seems that I have no life. Funny, I didn't have one to begin with. No friends, no future, no nothing. And to top it all of, I missed my fucking court date a week ago cause my lawyer sent the information to the wrong fucking address. I didn't know there was going to be a fucking hearing about me until 2 days later. Funny, I paid $1,20...

I changed my JU user name. It just seemed kinda boring to me. It was a name given to me by one of my "friends" that I had and it stuck. I thought it would be cool to use but it got old. I was tired of seeing that name on the heading of my blog and figured I'd change to a name that was more sutible. Time for a change anyway. Not like it was out of the blue or anything. Mada-ex is the name used on the URL. Wanted to sorta make it match my email address and the name on the URL. Giving you ...

Sucks being poor. I don't have any cash until friday. Damn, its just a day away and it seems like forever in the distance. The anticipation is killing me. I need cash dammit all!!! I've been just searching for food and can't find anything but, umm, peanut butter. Well, it will have to do. Slap some bread with it and it's a meal. Another reason I can't wait for payday is I get my cable modem on friday. No more dial-up after that. I can't wait. This dial-up business is so damn slow. ...

It's a day away from the weekend and I can't wait. Friday=payday. Payday=money. Money=equals. Awwww ... alchohol. OOOOhhh yeah, it's on tomorrow. I have know Idea what I would like to have though. One thing is for sure, I'll be drinking and partying here at the hizzie. After a day like today and a week like this week, I could use a drink right now. Dammit. Where is the booze when I need it. Well, until next time when I'll actually have something interesting to blog about. -MX-

I went to bed last night around 5 o'clock. Thought I was going to get enough sleep cause no work and all, but I woke up at freakin' 9. That's 5 hours of sleep. Crap. It should be enough but I had the same amount yesterday, the day after that, the day after that, and..well.. actually for the last month now. Is this a problem? It wouldn't be if I had nothing to do most of the day. Working 12 hours a day for 5 (to 6) days a week and only getting 5 hours of sleep in-between those periods do ...